The Other Bed

This week we took a short trip to take Daniel's Dad to the mountains. We rented a little cabin in the middle of no where about 20 miles from Asheville and didn't really do much for 2 days. It was a lot different from our "normal" life style. Callie was staying in the room with us and brought her pack and play along. It was the first trip in a long time that she didn't have her own bed. We went through the typical routine..dragging it in from the car, setting it up, & getting her sheets/blankets perfect. On the first night we did the normal bedtime routine. Brushing teeth, laying down for story time, and bedtime prayers. We both noticed that the pack and play must have shrunk. She had no leg room, but she seemed comfy curled up and was snoring away. When did she get so tall? On the second night we decided she was too big so we would bite the bullet and let her sleep with us. I honesty can't remember the last time we let her, so why not? We did the normal routine and when I turned off the light she curled up next to me on my pillow. I knew I wasn't going to sleep good from the constant moving and kicking, but it didn't matter I had my little snuggle buddy for the night and wanted to enjoy her.

About 30 seconds later she sat up & said "me get in other bed". A cry worthy moment. Without letting her know she had broken my heart I walked her across the room and she was asleep within the minute. What happened to that tiny baby that used to only sleep good when I was holding her? When she was a baby she would cry until I put her in bed with us. It was the normal 3 AM battle we fought for months. As heart breaking as this little statement was we know it's a good thing. We pouted for a little while and then Daniel said "maybe we are doing something right."

It's a bitter sweet thing and a huge step for her finding her independence. As much as we try to hold her and keep her small, she's growing up. We will enjoy every single second. I am sure there will be a night she wants to be my snuggle buddy again, but until then I will help her grow up and figure out life the best I can. I love you sweet girl. You'll always be my baby!