Daddy's Girl

Well, today I decided to stop being lazy and write a blog myself.  After 1 year, 7 months, and 27 days of getting thrust into fatherhood, I can honestly say that I've learned more in this stretch of time than I had in all of the rest of my life.  While few people know this, I'm actually one of the most emotional people on Earth.  And the reason I don't write on this blog is because the thought that goes into it will undoubtedly bring me to tears.  Many times in life, I've asked myself the question, "What makes me special?"  I always feel like everyone else has things figured out and have amazing things about them that make them special.  Meanwhile, my life seems like the most ordinary thing possible.  That isn't to say that I don't have an amazing family and great friends, but it just means that I don't view myself as being special.  It sometimes makes it hard for me to find meaning in my life.  That has always been a tough inner demon to fight.  That was until Callie.  The first time I knew my life had meaning was when I held her in my arms.

So here we are, a few days removed from my little angel turning 20 months old.  Caitlyn and I decided to take her to the playground today because it was so nice out.

 

 I honestly don't know what life was like before her.  She gives our lives more meaning and purpose than we could have ever imagined!

 

 

And that smile just melts my heart.  I sit and watch her sometimes and think about how fast the minutes are flying past me.  I catch myself reciting the words to a Kenny Chesney song in my head, "Gotta grab each moment that I can, 'cause I'm never gonna feel like this again!" The thought creeps in that my time on Earth with her is fleeting.  And I need to start making sure I spend it wisely.  Daddy loves you Callie bug.  Thank you for being the thing that gives my life meaning and I promise to never forget it!